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Memories II

Wed, 10 Jun 2009 02:45:38 GMT

I need to move on.

I found too many memories in the old boxes and it is really the time to drop all of them and move on now.

I do not know if I actually want to draw such a fine line between the past and the present.

Perhaps this is life, this is my chance to throw everything related to the past away.

Let's do it!

No tears, no regrets.

Memories

Fri, 22 May 2009 02:58:45 GMT

Xanga is officially my secret site. People forgot about xanga and they don't read these entry anymore. I am calling xanga my official secret blog. If you are reading it, you are one of the lucky ones who will be knowing a lot of the things that I don't wanna share in the public.

I love packing. I found memories. Sweet and sour.

I found the watch that daddy spoiled me with.

I found the letter that he wrote to me when I was asleep and he was getting ready to leave me.

I found personalised pens that reminded me how close me and my relatives used to be.

I found the ring and all those movie tickets that were burried when the relationship ended.

I found gifts from my dearest friends in high school.

I found things from my high school graduation and I can't believe another four years has passed.

I found people who are and were important and irreplaceable in my life.

Wish(esssssss) List

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:18:18 GMT

Gain 10lbs!

Get MY OWN puppy

Spend three months in Europe

Complete a wine-tasting course

Go to "Prom - The Last Night" when I arrive London

Be able to walk on 4-inches high heels 24 hours a day, 7 days a week - never have to take them off

Have Hermes Birkin in ALL colours

Investment Banking for life

Retired by 50

Visit Hong Kong and my family as often as possible

The 25-27-29 schedule

***To be continued***

Today's Lesson

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 16:35:36 GMT

I attend church today and it makes me feel good. At least, I know I finish Step One: Sunday services...now I just have to work on Step Two: building my utimate relationship with God. I know, you can group me as one of your religious friend now.

I learnt a few things today and just have to write it down somewhere. I don't want to do it over facebook because my party friends would not like to see this boring entry about church and faith. All they are interested are Time and Venue of all the hottest parties here.These VIPs sure earn perfect attendance.

Anyway, Today's Lesson,

"The more I sin, the more sufferings God will have to bear. If I don't do it to my family nor a friend, I shall not do it to God either."

"If I can build friendship with a total stranger, I, with no doubts, can build a fellowship with God who knows me well."

"And...one last thing....Kelly! Shut the hell up! Stop asking questions but start believing! Science and evolution and all that 'genius' cannot explain God's power to us. Plus, if I ain't smart enough to write out all the balance sheets in a minute, I ain't smart enough to understand all of God's doings."

Now, I have to be good and make a new friend named Jesus Christ.

呀!!!

Fri, 02 Nov 2007 15:46:29 GMT

长胖 - 吃吃吃猛吃

省钱 - 不花钱, 每个月只能花USD$100 (这个月的QUOTA快爆啦-__-)

上课 - 听到响闹要起床

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买票啦, 今年去SAN*FRAN过圣诞

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哼！

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 03:43:41 GMT

乖乖女

用了一年的时间证明她不光是个ＰＡＲＴＹ－ＧＩＲＬ，远离了酒池肉淋。

一年呢，成功了吧。恭喜！

她现在要用另外一年去证明她的实力和地位，

努力干活，证明过往的失败是因为懒惰而不是缺乏能力，

等着看吧～

笨小孩

Thu, 11 Oct 2007 08:56:52 GMT

刚刚花了一个小时从头再看一篇我的日记，我发现每次我心痛的时候所写的，都是要怪责自己表面太坚强而得不到爱护．．．

数到三就不哭

Thu, 11 Oct 2007 08:32:09 GMT

试过第一次，如果再来第二次，我想，就够了．．．
我应该要保护我自己，封锁自己，
可能快乐不会再出现，最少也不再感觉到伤痛，
不过这样的生活也变得太没意义．．．　
不知道是不是我所期待的

原来我的抵抗能力真的很弱，小小的伤害就把我毁了，
第一次之后，我复原了。可是，我没发现一切都是表面的，
心还是有一到疮疤，受到伤害的时候，
旧患会比之前伤得更深，更入进，更痛。

然后，无论有多痛，我都要靠自己的力量撑着．．．
我的表面工夫做得很好，天衣无缝，
是因为我不想自己变成别人的烦恼，往往都会装成没事，
可怜的是，大家还真的相信而从来没有想过要呵护我．．．
很矛盾，那明明就是我想要的结果，一切问题就让自己一个来承担，
但是这样的结果每一次都弄得自己很难受。
我怎么总不可以放开自己，就不要当个理智的永远把别人放在前面的人，
好让自己好过一些呢？

我真的很羡慕那种楚楚可怜的女生，
就像小王子的玫瑰花，永远得到小王子的爱护和怜惜．．．

Love

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 00:24:36 GMT

faith (fā)

noun

unquestioning belief that does not require proof or evidence
unquestioning belief in God, religious tenets, etc.
a religion or a system of religious beliefs
anything believed
complete trust, confidence, or reliance
allegiance to some person or thing; loyalty

爱是恒久忍耐，又有恩慈；
爱是不嫉妒，爱是不自夸，
不张狂，不作害羞的事，不求自己的益处，
不轻易发怒，不计算人的恶，不喜欢不义，只喜欢真理：
凡事包容，凡事相信，
凡事盼望，凡事忍耐．
爱是永不止息

无言

Mon, 10 Sep 2007 23:32:36 GMT

乐观，但这一刻没办法再逗自己笑；

伤心，但我也哭不来，更何况我不愿意让自己伤心。

射手座的我，感觉像对人欢笑背人愁．．．

我怕，但这已经是无法改变的事实，还是逼自己去面对吧。

现在就把一切交托给神吧。

小小的我，可以做的，应该做的，都尽力了。